You would be turning 6 this August. How the time gone by, not one day do I not regret my decision. I wonder were we would be. What you would look like. Would you have my attitude and your fathers eyes. Would you be tall or short. Would you have my big nose or your fathers cute button nose. Would you be a boy or a girl. I was not ready to be a mom I was weak, but I wish I was stronger. If I was stronger I would of turned around from signing the paper. If I was stronger I would of faught for you. But I was weak and I'm sorry. I'm sorry because of me you never got your first breath. I'm sorry because  of me we never met. I'm sorry because of me you never got the love you deserved. I'm sorry because of me your father never got to hold you. I'm sorry because of me you will never have a voice. I'm sorry because of me your not here. If I could make time go back I would of done things differently. I would of never went to the clinic to have you disappear. I would of held you, loved you and kept you safe. I'm sorry I failed you, I'm sorry I failed your father since I was weak.