Whenever my husband goes out after work I get insanely angry and I don't understand why. He normally has a beer or two and is home a couple of hours later than normal.

But if he's any later I get psycho crazy. I phone him, I message every few minutes venting and ranting, and I can't even stop myself.

Backstory- my husband used to drink way too much and at every opportunity. He'd go out every weekend and leave me at home. It was like this for years and it really shattered me.

Do you think it's almost like a flashback type reaction? I KNOW he's going come home but I get angry that a) we never go out and b) he never tells me where he is. Like to night I found out he went drinking with his old buddies 20kms from home (which isn't far but he normally is closer).

Then I start throwing things in his face which I KNOW is wrong. He emotionally cheated, I found out, then he did it again (kissed her next time), and I lost my shit and then after I found out he went to see her AGAIN I threatened divorce and he begged and pleaded. He hasn't seen her again but I'm very paranoid and insecure now, plus I know he finds a few of the ladies he works with very attractive which doesn't help me at all. And to make things worse, we were TTC when this was all happening (we're not now).

When I get in this rage and he tells me oh but he's just having a beer and he'll be home and it's not even 21:00 I retaliate by saying how do I know, I'm never with him for all I know he's meeting these other women, etc.

What should I do guys? We had such a huge fight tonight- he kept shouting at me that he hates me l, he's going to get divorce papers for me to sign, I make him feel like crap and I ill treat him and he wishes he never even met me and now he's drunkenly sleeping in the next room.

Can’t shake this feeling