Babies and luck

Anz

I started bleeding today when I was supposed to have my period the first. All of my test came up negative... it's mostly brown but has moved to pure red blood. Anytime my husband brings up baby stuff he's found it has torn me apart because I feel like such a failure because I feel like we will never have a family and I dont understand why. I have been emotional all day.... I dont know what to do anymore. I feel like such a failure.