This is my first time writing on here... even though I’ve used the app for almost two years now. I normally check in and out of topics and log out....

My husband and I have been trying to have a baby since our miscarriage in March 2010... to no avail... this year we decided after our cruise in May we would focus on creating our family. I did an initial consult with a fertility specialist prior to our cruise so I knew what was needed.

The way my cycle fell in June it didn’t allow for me to go follow up in time. So I took matters into my on hands and order something’s from Amazon to try and help us.

Well my husband did his appointment on the 19th after we spent the weeks prior BD almost every night of my window .... the beginning of the week he wasn’t given the best news and because when he got the news.....looking into his face while he gave me the news devastated me... not because of what the Dr said but because of the pain it brought to him.... Sidenote: My husband’s father was told he would never be able to have kids.... But God!!! I truly know that God has the final say and can change any diagnosis because of this.

I honestly felt that July was our month... We BD in the beginning of the month and my cycle was supposed to start two days after my birthday on the 21st which was last Sunday. I tested on my birthday the 19 and on the 21st and they were both negative.... here we are almost 7 days late and I’m petrified to test... just because of past experiences.

I’m 6 days late I have been more moodier than my normal cancerian self I mean complete meltdown at my birthday dinner snapping at any and everyone... I’ve experienced stomach cramps , nose bleeds and headaches..... I listened to sermons throughout the week and they keep throwing the number 7 at me which means completion... I maybe overthinking this but I want nothing more than to expand our family and help bring life into this world that will have me and him combined.

Also my cycle has been off maybe a day or two but never a week.