Okay so, I'm 30 weeks and I'm going to be 31 weeks with my first. Me and my hubby have known rather for 9 years. He's my bestfriend and love of my life. Throughout my pregnancy I've had feelings of leaving him not loving him etc. I got put on medicine for perinatal depression. It helped A LOT well now I'm in the third trimester and it's back again. I have these crazy dreams crazy thoughts I feel like really really paranoid like I'm developing anxiety. I'm worried about our baby coming (something we've always wanted) I either sleep or toss and turn all night my body hurts my stomach feels sore. My back hurts!! I don't want to run my family before it's even started but I feel like idk like it's a meds but when I think and feel deep down I love this man and I don't want to do something stupid if it's just hormones or there's just so much stuff going on and my body is in overdrive. Sorry thanks for listening to my rant and comment please..... I need my mommy friends right now....