I thought I could see a future

I’m so lost , 😭😭 idk why I let things get to a year and a few months I’m not sure why. I thought I could see a future with him I really fucking thought but things aren’t the same , I don’t see him being my husband . I don’t see it in him. He has kids , he expects me to this / that for them and he treats me like shit , they don’t speak they don’t say good bye I feel so alone being here. He lets everyone talk mad shit about me and not even straighten them about it. His mom doesn’t like me because he doesn’t tell her his story and the things he has done to me... I feel like it’s us against the world , & I’ll cut anyone off to save my relationship and he don’t. He talks shit to his mom about me