My last pregnancy was the first in 6 years after my second miscarriage.

I went straight to the doctor at 4.5 weeks. They did a pap smear (a painful one as I'm tilted) and transvaginal scan. They (obviously) didnt see much, but diagnosed a blighted ovum. They then ordered MANY blood tests. About 15 vials of blood were taken.

I left feeling weak and shaking. As if my body was in shock.

That night I was in the ER with severe ligament pain. Sent home with miscarriage paperwork and nothing done for me, as there's nothing they can do.

For WEEKS the baby grew slowly and I was constantly shown on the screen (multiple times a week) my babies impending doom.

At about 10 weeks after 3 weeks of no growth and a maybe that's a heart beat, maybe not, and then definitely not, we decided on a d&c.

Overall even with insurance all of this cost me thousands. I feel like that was their main goal. As many appointments and tests, invasions as possible to rack up the bill's.

The doctors cost me in multiple ways. Financially, emotionally.

After all this, a few months later and at 5.3 weeks, I REALLY dont want to see a doctor right now. Almost terrified.