Ahhhh!!

So my boyfriend and I usually do missionary because it seems we don’t really like other things, he tried doggy style and loved it but i was in a lot of pain and he saw that so he stopped. I feel like I’m preventing him because of it though. Recently he wanted me on top and I said okay but I got really insecure about it (I’m 107) and felt kinda fat and I know I’m not but when I told him that he said I had no reason to but when I started.... going, I don’t think I was doing a good job and I’m really nervous about it lol.

I also feel like I’m not that good at blowjobs bc he was the first person I did that with and I just have a really bad gag reflex, like he doesn’t even ask anymore. Basically I’m just really nervous about what I’m doing and would appreciate some tips (like how to make him feel better or how to be more comfortable)!!

Also I don’t masturbate and have never orgasmed bc I got scared about it and over thought everything to the point where I wasn’t really feeling it anymore. I don’t want to masturbate either but I feel like idk what I like/want because of this..

As you can see I need help!!!