Am I the mom? Or the Surrogate?

Tricia, 🇨🇦 PCOS, Mama to two babygirls 💕

I am about 5weeks pregnant, and I have not been able to make any choices at all, and everything that I have looked forward to my boyfriend has taken it from me ..

Looked forward to doing a gender reveal, and he won’t let me do that,

I looked forward to announcing it on social media after our first ultrasound, he won’t let me do that,

When we talk about names it’s only what he likes not me..

how do I not get mad? He doesn’t u understand what he is doing, and how it is actually affecting me, like as I type this I’m sitting outside crying. It’s like EVERYTHING is his choice, and it shouldn’t be like that, I should be happy and enjoying the pregnancy.. but it seriously feels like he’s the only one in the pregnancy. I just basically feel like a surrogate.

EDIT; I’m outside crying and I come back in and he’s snoring away.. shows how much he cares 😭😭

EDIT EDIT: had a talk with him about it and he told me he loves me and to do whatever I want and that he’s sorry