Saturday July, 27, 2019 it happened again. Fear crept upon me as I felt you leaving me. Pain emotionally & physically. I'm sorry, I couldn't carry you any further. I tried all 3 times... I feel so lost. What is wrong with me, am I doing something wrong? I have so many lost feelings inside of my heart. Mommy & Daddy were excited, thinking our 3rd time will be our charm but that turned out not to be true. I wish I knew why, but please know I loved you with all my heart and soul ☹️💔🦋