Not feeling connected

After trying for a year to get pregnant I thought I’d have more of a connected feeling to this baby. This is baby number two.

I’m struggling to feel connected. She doesn’t have a name. I’m so miserable I’m not excited about a lot. No clothes have been bought. The crib isn’t set up. She doesn’t have any items besides what I saved from my daughter. we have an online registry since we moved far from family.

I have guilt for feeling like this. But it’s a valid and very real feeling. Anyone else?