All I can do is cry

I dont know how much more I can handle of being let down....this is our 6th month of trying since my miscarriage...a pregnancy I have waited 6 years for taken away in just 8 short weeks and now we only struggle to get pregnant again. There are reminders everywhere of what I would give anything for just to have. I really thought this was our month. I took clomid this month and was 2 days late. Just when I started getting excited AF showed up this morning and I am just lost for words and emotions. I just want to be a mom