For a while now I’ve been feeling very sad, depressed and a lot of anxiety. I thought I had it under control but just recently like two months ago I feel like everything just exploded. I cry every single day like 4 or 5 times. I’m way to into

My thoughts which makes me want to drink a lot. And I hate drinking a lot Bc I always get sick the next day. I Recently started lashing out on people and it has affecting my relationship with everyone. (Main reason why my bf broke up with me). He knew I was depressed and had a lot of anxiety but I guess he didn’t want to be around that. I have no one to talk too Bc my so calls friends are never there for me. Any advice you ladies can give me how to deal with this. ?