Idk if anyone is going through this or has been diagnosed...

but, it was really bad in my first trimester, kinda went away during my second, & now I’m a week away from my third trimester and I feel like a total mess..

Everyday is a constant battle for me. I’m in constant pain. I don’t recognize myself anymore when I look in the mirror. Mentally and physically I feel like trash. I feel like I’m only here for one reason & it’s to take care of this baby & to make sure he’s healthy...

Other than that, I use to be active, full time student, full time job, lots of friends, & had my family all around...

But now,

A month before I got pregnant, bcuz my husbands active military we moved all the way from Nevada to Guam...

I have no one here besides my husband.

No friends/no family, I don’t work (it’s hard to get a job when your pregnant & when they find out your a military spouse) , I can’t go to school bcuz of the overseas curriculum(long story)...

Im just in a constant battle with myself every day. & I hate having to burden my husband with how I feel. I hate having to explain to him why I feel this way even though he reassures me all the time.

I just hope this doesn’t carry on after baby is born. My doctor said in most cases you can either have antepartum depression or postpartum...