I was 6 weeks along when I was told I was losing my baby. It hit harder than I thought it would as we had been trying and praying for so long. I felt my uterus light contracting. I was half hoping I would miss the passing, but I didn't. The sac fell out as I stood up from the toilet and landed on the floor.

I cradled my baby for about half an hour. My husband came home and I didn't want him to see, so I threw it in the toilet and flushed without even thinking. I didn't want him to worry or think I had snapped because I suffer from severe depression....

I regret that moment to this day. I feel so guilty for not burying it or something. I can't let that memory go. Even knowing that my rainbow is due in October. I'm still haunted... I wish I could have buried it...