I’m having a baby shower this weekend and honestly I don’t want to go. I am having a girl and 34 weeks pregnant. Lately I have been so sad like I don’t want to do shit. I get mad at myself for it, I’ll just want to leave whatever the situation is, or whatever I’m at. I rather just mind myself and be alone. I don’t care what time of day it is, if I’m sad I’ll just leave for a walk on my own. Probably dumb at night but I don’t care because I just need a breather. I just want this pregnancy to be over. As much as I love my baby already I just feel like I don’t deserve this. This depression has really got to me. Of course I would never think of hurting myself, I’m just so sad that I rather not be around others. I feel like no one understands me. Like I’m some stupid kid.

I do have my happy days where I feel good, happy, and look forward to the day but other times I’m feeling low. I feel like I mainly feel this way is because my man puts me down and because I’m pregnant, “I’m sensitive” or “in my feelings”. I try my best to do things right and make everyone happy but I fail every time. I just wish people could help me out, or ask how I’m doing. Just because I’m pregnant doesn’t mean I got my life together I still need some lovin’ and support.

Can anyone relate to where I’m coming from?

Just venting 😞