I’m done trying. I’m done wanting. I’m done caring. It has been about two years of trying and it’s never going to fcking happen. Everyone else is popping out baby number 1,2, or 3. I could have sworn this was the month but no I’m a gosh damn failure. I can’t do it anymore. I have helped raise my boyfriends son and his brothers son and I love them but I want to create a baby of my own who will call me mom and think I’m the best thing in the whole world. But apparently I’m not good enough for that. I don’t deserve it. I’m done with this app. I’m done with Facebook. I’m done talking to people that have baby’s or are pregnant. I mentally can’t take it anymore. Hell. Might as well be done with sex too since I suck so much.