I’m pregnant with my 3rd baby. I have two beautiful kids and I love them dearly. During their pregnancies, I was so excited to meet them, wondered what they would look like, named them early on, spent days reading to my belly or singing to it. I would get so excited to buy things for the baby, get everything ready.

It’s different this time. I’m not excited. In fact, I’m terrified. And I don’t know why. I’m not excited, I don’t have a name yet, haven’t thought much of what the baby would look like or what life will be like once he’s here, and I don’t get excited by baby stuff.

This baby wasn’t planned, but my husband and I are in a much better place in life since the birth of our first two children. We’re more financially stable, we have a house, we have a yard, we have an amazing support system and excited family members.

What the heck is wrong with me? Is anyone else experiencing this? Please tell me it’s just the hormones and things will change once baby is here.