I’ve gotten engaged and getting my marriage licenses next weekend. You took three babies from me 😞 that I REALLY wanted! It hurts me badly and deeply knowing That the due date is next month for that first pregnancy. The second baby was healthy and growth perfectly at 8 weeks and 5 days till you notify me it was a tubal and the baby was already dying. Since then I’ve been depressed and alone. I tried again at this child making and the outcome was confusing, but now I notice it was a chemical pregnancy. I wouldn’t think you would see me sad every time, so now I accepted the fact you do and this was meant to be! For me to NOT have kids that I’ve been wanting. My future husband is tired trying repeatedly too with all these miscarriages my body is going through. I came to you cried and prayed three times for you to save my kids but instead the prayer wasn’t carried out. I feel like I’m being picked on. I thought you would understand and hear my cries. I know you said “If I asketh I shall Receive” father that’s what I did indeed!!!? But I feel like you rejected my prayer and just decided my fate to be infertile because I’m currently listed as infertility within my documents for doctors. My life been going down hill and I just hope you’ll hear me out again on my requests father.

I feel like there is nothing more to me. I feel lost and alone with no one near to help not even you! I don’t want to believe none of these bad feelings but god I’m a little angry and just want to find relief.