Boyfriend of 3 & a half years

So I’ve recently left my boyfriend of almost 4 years it was great until he started drinking real heavy to where he would degrade me and disrespect me calling me all out of my name I constantly forgave the behavior until most recently i cut off contact for 2 weeks and then decided to meet up with him we went to the movies and I just was uncomfortable he kept trying to cuddle me and I kept moving my arm so he couldn’t lay on me he invited me to stay with him and I usually would jump on to do that but not this time I said it was a bad idea I feel like sh*t and could this possibly mean that I’m really done with my relationship or am I just really mad I can’t tell please help or throw some positivity my way