Anyone ever feel disconnected from their baby?

33w Preggo. I am beyond hot 🥵 & even though they issues out maternity pants, the pants themselves are not so comfortable 😫. Anyways. I do love him, I’m preparing for him, buying baby gear with excitement, but It doesn’t feel like I’m the one that’s going to have a baby. I feel bad. What if he arrives and i still don’t? At my baby shower, i called him “It”. I thought maybe It was shock, then i was like well I’ll wait for the gender, but when i found out I was having another boy, I felt even more like .... down🌧. So i was like well when i start showing and feel baby movement, but i have anterior placenta so i feel him move but it’s not as big and fun as other moms😫. My Belly is bigger but It just doesn’t feel like my body with a baby. Just feel fat and sick