I’m 17 weeks. I’ve read and been told that miscarriage rates have dropped significantly now that I’m in the 2nd trimester. Yes, it’s statistically proven that most miscarriages happen in the first 12 weeks. But it still happens after that. For whatever reason. Missed miscarriages and stillborns, underdeveloped organs or the cord wrapped around the babies neck, genetic problems and disabilities. It all still happens. The risk of miscarriage never really goes away and that is what frightens me. I think for a moment that this pregnancy will be fine now that I’m out of the first trimester. But then I think of the future, the unknown. Unknowing if something could happen between now and the remaining 23 weeks.

I stay positive as much as I can, but until I have my rainbow baby in my arms, that fear will always be in the back of my head.