so terrified of giving birth again

my son is 3 months old and i had him naturally. i want more kids in the future and even though it’s hard, i can deal with pregnancy and all the symptoms and even with labor but the actual birth/delivery/early postpartum period.....ugh god, it makes me never want to do it again.

when i had my son i obviously went in clueless but now that i know ...idk if i can do it again.