so i’m 14 almost 15 and i’ll be starting high school soon. i’ve always liked boys and i don’t like thinking about me as a lesbian or liking girls. it just doesn’t feel like me. i just got back from a beach trip with one of my friends and at first it was fine and i was having fun. her family made me feel uncomfortable the whole time but that’s not the point. this friend and i always have a blast and she’s a pretty new friend. after a couple of days i had a dream of us in a hot tub and her like trying to put her arm around me. in the dream i hopped out of the hot tub and acted like i forgot something. i remember feeling very uncomfortable in the situation. after that dream i haven’t stopped asking myself if i like girls. i had this super huge crush on this boy who was a little older than me for months now but he has a gf so i backed off and let him be happy. also while we were on this trip i kind of fell or was like jokingly falling and my friend grabbed my waist and like held me for a minute. i hated it and it made me feel uncomfortable.i also had to sit on her lap in the car a couple of times and i dreaded it. i don’t know if that means i’m gay or something but i haven’t talked to my mom about it. is asking myself if i like girls normal and will i grow out of it. the whole situation makes me really uncomfortable. i’m supposed to go to a concert with her tommorw but i lost my ticket and i’m kind of happy about it. help me