So I was in the mood for sex at 29 weeks, it doesn’t happen often anymore because everything hurts so bad even. I want to for my husband but physically it’s getting so hard. Anyways tonight I decided to initiate just to surprise him but then it was kinda like he wasn’t into it, so I was kinda bummed but I know he was tired, so I went to climb off his lap and he kept going, then pretty soon it was like the more clothes that came off the more my mood was slowly going away and anxiety was kicking in. After a short amount of time we switch positions and he just goes limp ( nothing new for us because he does struggle with ED especially when tired) I dont know why it bothered me so much tonight but I just start bawling 😭 naked sitting on his lap. Every emotion and thought possible was going through my head. From my belly button looks weird to did I yell at my kids to much today 😩 I just felt like a failure in every aspect of my life in that moment.

I’m a horrible mom

I’m failing my husband

I’m failing my son who isn’t even born yet

My stretch marks are horrifying

My belly button is disgusting

My butt is flat and getting more flabby

Just a few of my thoughts as I’m sitting and just crying. Thankfully my husband is so understanding especially this time around after struggling with PPD after our second was born. He just sat with me blubbering and trying to make out what I’m saying, just telling me to let it all out. Pregnancy is hard! Body image issues are hard! Feeling like a failure of a parent and spouse is hard! Seriously it’s okay to cry!

Sorry if this doesn’t make any sense crying is exhausting so my brain is a tad jumbled right now ...