I want that too

I've just seen a post here.. From someone testing 6 days before AF and getting a (faint) positive.

And I am feeling guilty. Big time.

Instead of being happy for her.. All I can think about is how badly I want to see that second line show up myself.

I rather have a faint one than none at all.

But unfortunately.. After 21 cycles.. I haven't even had the faintest of lines.

Except from my opk but they don't count 😂

And I'm sad because I do want to feel happy for other people. And I do want them to be happy. And I do wish them to have their baby.