Hi my name is M. When I was younger I dabbled in drugs and developed a tolerance to heroin very early on. I was using twice a day and if I didn’t use I was sick, and irritable. I got out of it before it became a full on addiction. It’s been 11 years since I’ve done heroin but I have done Perc’s , Vicodin’s, Tramadol, and coke. So I have had a couple slip ups in the years most recently last year I did come. I’m not gonna lie I do still get the urges to want to do heroin.

In September a really good friend of mine had OD’d and all I wanted to do was OD so I could be with him again. I fought with myself so hard to not go and get high or OD. An it was a hard fight. I know that he would not have wanted me to do that to my kids.

I do think about him every second of my life and it’s really hard but what helps me is that I know he is no longer suffering that he’s now at peace.

I’m sorry this is all over the place