I never thought at 19 I'd be a mother but it happened and now I'm terrified beyond belief. Throughout my pregnancy I haven't really bonded with my baby or felt that magical love everyone talks about and I'v felt nothing but guilt. However, just the other day I went in for my 24 week ultrasound and started to tear up. Seeing her face, watching her move, thinking about what part of her is me and the other is her dad pulled something in my heart.

Mommy loves you Esme Rose and I always will ❤