So, while I have three older children, this is our first child together. I am 45. My history: preterm birth at 25 weeks, two cerclages, and one uterine rupture (the last). That last one left both me and my daughter on the verge of death (she now had permanent brain damage because of it). My life is quite literally on the line here.

So today my pretty stupid man tells me that child birth is natural for a woman 😶. so I'm literally scared I'm going to die, and you think your trying to quit smoking is harder than what I'm doing?!??! I might be hormonal, but I might kaput leave him for that!! (Not sure if I'm kidding uet... I'll let you know tomorrow).