Finally getting my birth control removed!

So after i had my son last year, my doctor suggested i get on birth control so i went with nexplanon.

The first 2 months i was a wreck. I was depressed/ had some suicidal thoughts but i would never ever act on them. So far that has gotten better but ive gained a lot of weight and im just sick of feeling and looking like this. I finally called and made an appointment to get it removed on the 20th and ive never been so happy!!!