You won't believe this!

I've been married for a year and been waiting all this time ttc as my husband wanted to 'wait' a little. I didn't mind at first but finally the time has come, I've really been looking forward to it! Been taking prenatal, been eating healthy, telling my close friends.. . Now after 2 months ttc (we are both 34) my husband tells me that he doesn't feel ready and he wants to wait a little longer!

I just feel heart broken!!!!

I can't believe that he is doing this me!! If he is not ready I can't force him.... But I'm so disappointed! He says that he is scared that it's not going to be a good father and that his kids might struggle in life like he did.

He also said he wants a family in the future with me and he doesn't want to loose me.

What am I going to do?

I feel betrayed and my dream of having a family it's gone! ;(

I'm not so young anymore to be able to just wait.... I'm ready now and already thinking it would have taken about a year to conceive... ;(