So today when I told my husband I was feeling sexually frustrated he told me he ‘doesn’t fuck me’ because he no longer thinks I’m attractive. We have been together a total of almost 9 years. Today he said I’ve been steadily declining since our prom date my freshmen year of HIGH SCHOOL and then hit rock bottom a few years ago and haven’t surfaced. I’m not gorgeous by any means but I have always taken care of my body, I lift and do cardio 6-7 days a week and I’m in way better shape than I was in high school. Admittedly I do have a problem with my breasts not being the same size, it’s actually a big difference. It used to make me so incredibly insecure I would stuff one side and grew my hair out to cover it. But over the years I’ve worked really hard on accepting myself the way I am because I thought he did. Then today he tells me he has always found my breasts disgusting and no man would ever find me attractive. I’ve just never been so gutted in my life. He kept insisting he was only saying these things because I wanted him to be honest. Which I guess fair is fair. Then he goes on to tell me he has only been having sex with me a few times a month over the last couple years to ‘fulfill a bodily function’ and it had nothing to do with ever wanting me. I get I asked him to be honest so I only got what I was asking for but it broke me. He told me the only way for us to work through our problems is if I start wearing makeup and doing my hair and get my breasts done. There was never even a hint of him having a problem with me not wearing makeup, or dressing up all the time, or getting my hair done. He used to encourage me to not do those things! He said he was shocked i never realized I was that level of unattractive. He keeps saying he wants me to work through this with him and change for him. I just am so lost because I have never wanted him to change a thing I love him with everything I have and just realizing today that all those moments over the last couple years that we had sex and I really thought it meant something, they were empty. Anyways if you made it this far you have a ton of patience, with this wildly grammatically incorrect story. I’m just so upset right now I needed a way to vent and get advice becauseI love him, but I also don’t think I should have to change so radically for someone to love me in the way I want to be loved. Thank you. Also pictures just for attention

Update:

I can’t even express how all this support made me feel. I read every one of these comments and cried because I’ve never felt so supported in my life. And honestly because it made me see that complete strangers on are being more supportive and caring than he is. I haven’t completely decided what to do yet, there’s a part of me that’s so angry at him for putting me down this way that I want to get the boob job (he said he’s buying) then leave. I know that’s incredibly petty and probably super wrong but thinking about doing that makes me slightly happier for the moment. But the gist of this is I love every one of you, and I appreciate every one of your comments. I know none of you owe me a second of your time so it means a lot that you took the time to lift someone you don’t even know up. I will absolutely keep this post updated on what happens, I owe you all at least that💗💗

Update2

Since everyone wants a picture of the guy😂😂 although to be completely honest I’ve always found him extremely attractive, not just because of how he looks but because of how he made me feel. But yeah this is the guy.....He looks tall here but he’s my height 5ft9in