I want it to be my turn.

Currently crying in bed. My husbands sleeping next to me. No sign of af, waiting to test on Monday, but I cant help but cry over the symptoms Im feeling. Im terrified that it’ll be my period. Glo says im 16 days late but my other ones say af due in 6 days.. I have this gut wrenching feeling that this is my month! But Im still afraid it wont be me thats next. I think its bcause I miscarried last year. Ive also had big signs, but I dont wanna be that person that reads everything little thing, even if it isnt so little, I dont wanna be thinking it’s something that it isnt. It would be so nice to know that I work. That Im not broken. Why cant I be the woman that gets pregnant right away on accident. Why am I having so much trouble doing what Im biologically made to do? Im so torn, but im staying hopeful. I will never give up on my rainbow. Mommys coming for you belly bean!