I am an extroverted person, but the minute I feel I did something wrong my social anxiety hits.

I was very awkward in high school and middle school where I go ignored and teased. Constantly I felt out of place with the “cooler” kids around. I struggled with my self esteem for as long as I can remember.

I wish I didn’t care or give a crap what people thought about me, even if I was being a big awkward or weird. I tend to over apologize because I want to be “forgiven” and feel accepted again but then they think I’m more odd because most of the time it really wasn’t a huge deal and/or it was all in my head. Trying to figure out how to just not care or be brought back into that place of self judgement, but it’s hard..