i’m so in love

ahh, it’s weird to say i’ve already been in 3 relationships when i’m just a teen, but each one has taught me something different. from girls to a boy, having the same views to disagreeing but somehow making it work. they’re all lessons. i learned how to love from each. 1. being distant isn’t a good idea, don’t hop in to things too fast or atleast think before you do, make time for your person, but understand that you can be alone too 2. it’s okay to disagree if you can make it work so be it, make the best of the small moments, don’t act like you don’t have time for someone 3. jump out if there are red flags, dont disregard your self worth, evaluate how people treat you. yeah, not fun lessons to learn, but i’m not ashamed to say i have. and now 4, but there’s something different, we click? that’s never happened before, i always thought i was in love, but i’ve been proven wrong. i’ve never been so scared of loosing someone, and we both agree it’s because we are such a big part of each other’s lives. how can i love without this amazingly talented, smart, kind, supportive, cute soul by my side? honestly haven’t solved that riddle at all, and will i ever, i don’t think so. how can i coexist with my number one supporter without him being by my side, i cant. too painful to even imagine. believe me, i’ve always been super okay with the idea of life moving forward and growing apart, i’m also no hopeless romantic either. but this time i’m not okay, just the thought brings tears to my eyes. please keep on keeping on right by my side...