I met this guy over a year ago and we met again in December for work training. When we started talking I really liked him, he was older than me but I've never seen that as bad I mean not once did he ever try and hurt me. He never did anything wrong. I love this guy and I have for the last 6 months but I haven't seen him in 5 months. We had to stop talking when my parents found out about him and threatened to kill him. He told me we wouldn't be able to talk for a while and he didn't blame me and he told me it'd be okay and told me to be good and whatever, which was all he could say because he didn't seem to want to say the words goodbye. I wanna marry him and have a life with him, is that crazy? I still try and get in touch over skype and Facebook and google duo and phone calls but he never answers. Is it weird that I'm still trying to reach out? I'd give anything for a 5 minute phone call. He was my best friend and the person I always went to when something went wrong because I trusted him. If I needed to vent or was upset he always reminded me that he was safe to talk to (knowing what my ex did he always assured me he was safe, my feeling safe mattered to him) and I was always talking to him and face timing but I mean I loved him more than anyone else and this guy was absolutely amazing. He meant the world to me. I still text him anytime something goes wrong. I texted him when someone committed suicide and when I could hear shots across the street from work, I still confide in him even though I have no idea if he even gets the messages.

Just like sometimes I feel like I might be coming off as obsessed because my mom always says I'm obsessed with boys even though I'm not. But another part of me just sees what I am, just the loving girl who would give anything to see him again. Can I get some opinions on this please. I don't usually confide in anyone, I've had my ass handed to me my whole life so I don't usually trust at all.