When will it be my time?

Got pregnant in Nov of 2017 and found out (the day after my birthday) I had lost the baby and needed to have surgery for a blighted ovum.

Fast forward to today, taking 12 pills a day plus progesterone and I was diagnosed with Endometriosis and will need surgery in December.

Part of me wants to give up, to just stop caring. I feel defeated some days and just don’t know what to do. I’m tired of hearing “everything happens for a reason” and “your time will come”

But I want to be a mommy now!

I want to feel what other moms feel when they hold their baby for the first time.

I want to give the gift of fatherhood to my husband.

I just want to have a family, my own family.

Sorry for the venting. 🙁

It can get frustrating and very lonely.

❤️