Please tell me this feeling will pass 🤦‍♀️

Okay, I'll start of with saying I have 2 amazing little boys (my March baby, and my July 2015 baby), and a wonderfully supportive fiancé who works his ass off to provide for us because it's more financially realistic for me to be a SAHM, than it is for me to go back to work, thanks to the ridiculous childcare costs.

But lately all I can think about is having another baby. I've always wanted 3, and I've always believed my kids would go Boy, boy, girl. I was right with my first 2, doesn't mean the next one will be a girl, but that's beside the point. All I can think about is if we have our 3rd sooner, that's it, we're done, it won't be as long before I can start work again. And financially it would be possible, if I stayed as a SAHM. But at the same time I know that I wouldn't be able to cope with 2 so young. There's a nearly 4 year age difference between baby #1 and baby #2. Baby #1 had been potty trained for over a year before baby #2 arrived. 2 in diapers does not sound fun.

TL;DR - Really want another baby (#3) ASAP, but also really don't want another baby until baby #2 is at least 2 1/2.