It's been a long journey of 3 + years. Took a break n started back June and it has been rough coming back to this dark dreaded place. I hate it and I do not ever in life want to go thru this again. At this point out all our babies is gonna come thru this one <a href="https://glowing.com/glow-fertility-program">IVF</a> cycle. (2-3 hopefully)

My doc is going to give me a special quote as I was going to go to Mexico to do <a href="https://glowing.com/glow-fertility-program">IVF</a> and the meeting is today to sign the the contract. (Its FCC Cancun and the price was 12k for <a href="https://glowing.com/glow-fertility-program">IVF</a> with PGS testing. Cover meds, ultrasounds, <a href="https://glowing.com/glow-fertility-program">egg freezing</a>, the whole <a href="https://glowing.com/glow-fertility-program">ivf</a> process. It's cheaper if u opt to not do PGS btw, that's

4500$)

Yesterday, as luck would have it I started spotting in the afternoon for a few hours. It made me get soo excited and I rushed to take 3 pregnancy tests. All negative.

I immediately went into it's too early. I should wait two days to test and blah blah. I dont wanna sike myself up but it's hard not too. Now I'm all convinced that I'm pregnant. After 3 years, I know this will lead to a negative but I cant help but feel this way.

I'm really praying for the day that I can be done with this process. I'm ready to get off the emotional roller coaster and being consumed by this. I hate it.

Anybody ever feel this way?