Okay so I’ve been dating this guy for 9 almost 10 months. I met him on snap and met up at school. I’m 16 and he’s 18. Well he grew up harsh like getting kicked out, no job etc. when I met him I didn’t like him but I gave him a shot. I was so in love with the kid I didn’t even realize it. Well everything was going good and we started having problems. I’ve tried breaking up with him so many times!! It just makes shit worse... he started stalking me, showing up at my house, mentally abusing me, he once followed me home from school and blocked me on the side walk and pushed me to make me listen to him. Etc.

I then went and became a dumb bitch and took him back. We were doing okay and I knew I should have handled it in the relationship instead of just pushing the kid away. Well now he’s starting to aggravate me again. All we do is fight! He begs to sleep over my house every time we chill which is EVERYDAY. He just shows up at my house.... and I tell him no every time. Because I’m 16 and I don’t wanna disrespect my parents and shit. Well he went behind my back and asked my mom for himself... after we have talked about it and he told me he would stop.

I’ve lost so many friends because of him. Oh and family. My parents hate him so much because he’s a low life piece of shit. He just got a job at Publix ( a grocery store) and my mom works with him and he SUCKS!! he’s making my mom look bad. He also does lsd and shit don’t get me wrong I’ve never tried it but I’ve always wanted to, with my best friend because I trust her to watch me and shit😂 but just being with him in general pisses me off.

Everyone is telling me I can find better and I know I can I just can’t let him go. I’m selfish with him but I hate him at the same time. And I am bipolar so that sucks. I’ll have times with him where I’m like I love u so much I wanna marry you then I’m like get the fuck out of my house. And shit.

I’m also starting school again my junior year so I have to stay focused because I have all honors classes so I’m trying to make something of myself with medical school and shit and I dont want him to fuck it up for me. I’ve met so many good guys and shit. Mind you not matt (bf) got kicked out of school and had to get his ged..... fucking amazing right ?😒

I am not the type to judge but I’m kinda on the edge with this kid...

My best friend is scared for me because she thinks he’s scary and is going to kill me one day if I find someone else. That type of if I can’t have her u can’t type shit. Because of how controlling and shit he is like fuck... what do I do how do I let him down nice. Cause everytime I try it turns into hell.

P.s- sorry for the book 💀just had feelings that needed to get out that’s not even all of it smh.