This is going to be long, so bear with me.

My cat has a history of vomiting. My husband absolutely can’t take the sight or sound of vomiting it makes him gag and basically just freaks him out like some people at the sight of blood.

So Zora had started vomiting today and my husband picked her up to put her in the bathroom so she wouldn’t vomit on the carpet. Somehow during this process she ended up throwing up on herself so he took her in the shower with him to clean her off. You can imagine how a cat reacts to water. Surprinsingly, He got her all washed off no problem and then he turned around to get something to dry her with and she freaked and bit him and he dropped her out of shock. He tried to grab her mid fall and she ended up falling onto the toilet seat that’s right next to the shower.

He called me at work extremely upset and said I needed to come home because he thinks the cats leg is broke. I got there and it was a little bloody but didn’t “look” broken. Off to the ER Vet we went because our normal vet was too full to see her.

We waited so long and she did so well. She was hardly meowing at all and actually took a nap during the wait.

The vet initially thought she had just popped her hip out of place and prepped with a little sedation and pain medicine for the X-ray. Results came back and her leg was broken beyond repair, they had to amputate it tonight and it was devastating along with the cost! $4800!!!!!! And that doesn’t include the follow up visits to monitor her healing. I’m so beside myself. I can’t sleep, I have to work tomrorow, I had to cancel our 1st wedding anniversary trip because we can’t afford it with the unexpected costs, our savings are depleted and everything is falling apart.

I can’t talk to my husband because I really don’t know how... I know its 100% NOT his fault and was just a freak accident but I can’t stop thinking about why he had to pick her while vomiting. I just keep thinking it was “so unnecessary, so unnecessary, so unnecessary” like a loop in my brain.

This might be silly to some people but I don’t have children and she is basically our kid. I could really just use some good thoughts sent my way...

Thanks for listening.