We finally went in to get our ultrasound today after waiting for my insurance to take affect at work!

Had my 4 year old son with us to see the heartbeat and his sibling, and try to get him excited and into the idea of having a baby brother or sister..

I'm in shock and disbelief right now.

I should be about 9 weeks, and baby measured 8 weeks 5 days...no heartbeat was found during ultrasound or transvaginal. Dr called to confirm a miscarriage after reviewing..

Now I'll have to tell my 10 yr old and try to explain to our 4 yr old..

THIS, after I bought t-shirts and took pics of them to surprise everyone as an announcement! And my husband wondered why I didn't announce it to everyone yet. I told him to wait until I have an ultrasound at least! He just told his 26 yr old son this week, my husband is 47 and I'm 39...I'm sure he told his entire side, and now I feel like incredible crap as I just want to mourn without them in my business.

Now I wait to see if my body just miscarries on it's own.

Not sure what my best option is if it doesn't miscarry by itself. The pills? D&C? No clue...

The worst part is feeling like we're in a hurry to have our last baby due to our ages, trying to give our 4 yr old a sibling closer in age, and trying to tell the kids...I feel so hurt that after only 1 try we became pregnant and now this...