I guess I just basically want to say openly that my ttc journey is sucking. My 3 kids from previous relationships are all rainbows. Each one there was one lost in between and my first pregnancy was a miscarriage too. The last one i lost was a ruptured ectopic with twins that literally almost killed me. I now have only one tube due to the other being removed in emergency surgery 2 years ago. I was told after that surgery that I had a 10% chance of ever having another baby. 3 months later I found out i was pregnant with my now 18 month old daughter. Flash forward to now.... Keep in mind I'm a regular "fertile myrtle" as some would say... And not a patient person at all... My wonderfully and sometimes obnoxiously optimistic fiance of a year and I have been trying for 6 months to continue his family as it ends entirely with him. No pressure right? We are 25. His mom is an RN and ive done tons of research on my own, he agrees with me that when I hit 30, we are done trying, whether we have suceeded or not. Simply due to statistically higher rates of issues and not wanting to risk that if we can help it. I guess im just frustrated because we have been trying everything down to almond and avocado smoothies 3x a day for both of us. It's insane some of the things out there that people say to try. I'm honestly ready to give up on trying at this point... And making this all even worse one of my best friends is living my dream pregnant with twins...😭💔😭💔😭💔 can't help but be insanely jealous and it kills me....