This year...was supposed to be such an exciting year for me and my husband. In February, I started a new job that I LOVE! In April we agreed to toss my birth control and we officially started out TTC journey. We hit a few minor hiccups with my lab work but thyroid levels are easily treatable so we kept moving forward. In May, my grandmother passed away from a very brief battle with terminal cancer but my whole family was looking forward to my little brother's graduation in June...until we got a phone call the evening before. My older brother was in an accident with his 2 kids traveling from Pennsylvania to Indiana to be with our family. My niece, 7, passed away shortly after making it to the hospital. My nephew, 6, was thankfully okay. I watched my brother in the hospital room on life support for 4 days before he passed away. I was the only one in the room when it happened. The first half of the year has been terrible for my family. The constant tracking of everything (bbt, cm, etc) has been stressful and makes it difficult to NOT obsess over it. I am so tired. This month I purchased a tempdrop to hopefully ease the bbt tracking but it'd be so nice if it could just happen for us. We've been together 6 years and are celebrating our one year anniversary in a few weeks with a wonderful Caribbean vacation, ironically during my fertile week 🤞 I could really use some good vibes and to anyone that actually reads all of this much love and baby dust.