No one ever tells you how hard it’ll be to realize and let it sink in that you’re no longer expecting. They don’t tell you how hard it will be to reach those dates that would have been milestones through out your pregnancy. They don’t tell you what it’ll be like to go from planning baby showers, picking out names, and nursery themes to hearing the words “I’m so sorry there’s no heartbeat.” No one tells you the physical pain you’ll go through to pass a child that was yearned for and created from such love, what it’ll be like to physically feel the pain of half your soul leaving your body and the emotional destruction you’ll feel when you still have those hormones raging through your body with nothing to show for it. No one tells you what it’ll be like to have others ask you how the pregnancy is going. They don’t tell you what it’ll be like to watch everyone around you have a beautiful pregnancy you’ve only ever dreamed of. They don’t tell you that you’ll blame yourself for everything that when wrong, that you’ll ponder everything that you could of done differently. They don’t tell you true unsurpassable amount of grief and sadness you’ll feel for a blessing that was shortly lived. But what they will tell you is that you’re young and you can try again. They’ll tell you at least you were as far along as others who have been through this may have been. They’ll tell you there’s still hope. However, what I will tell you is it’s okay not to be okay. I will tell you that there’s nothing anyone can say or do to make any of this any better. I will tell you I know exactly what it’s like to go from seeing those blazing pink lines to looking at an ultrasound and feeling in your gut that somethings not right after googling countless ultrasound pictures of how you’re baby should look like. I will also tell you you’re not alone and it’s okay to grieve for your angel baby.