Too scared

I’m attracted to girls but have only ever been able to tell 2 people. I’m a Christian and so’s my husband so I know he won’t react well. I don’t think I’d ever be with a girl but I just wanna tell someone besides my sister in law 😭

*I would like to add that I’m happy in my marriage and know I’ll never be with a woman because I’m married and love my husband. I’m not a lesbian, just maybe bi? I don’t like keeping things from my husband and just wish I could vent about how hard it’s been to pretend my whole life that I’m not attracted to them and that it kinda sucks I never got to experiment you know? I don’t need judgment however and people assuming that I’m upset that I’ll never get to be with a woman because I’m married. I got married knowing I’d never be with anyone else. I don’t want anyone else, my husband is perfect to me, I’m just saying I wish I could vent and let the secret out. So please keep your assumptions to yourself. Also, I’ve told Jesus, thanks for the sarcasm 🙄 isn’t one of the perks of this group that you can post your confessions without judgement or ignorant comments? Lol. Frustrating.