my heart gets broken every month . i just want my baby . ive tried so hard every month and nothing . im tired of crying my eyes out bc i get a negative test or my period comes . im tired of seeing people who dont want kids concieving . im tired of seeing positive test . im tired of seeing ultrasounds . im tired of seeing bumps . im tired of seeing babies be born . im sick of it . i just want my own baby . i want to be a le to experience real love . im tired of my heart getting shattered every month bc everything is just negative negative negative i will never get my positive ive tried so hard and still get nothing idk what more i can possibly do bc nothing ever works nothing happens every month its the same thing and im just sick of it idk why i cant concieve . why my body hates me . im so depressed and crying typing this bc i just want my baby but i’ll probably never get it . its not your time doesnt make me feel any better bc when is that gonna be its been 3 fucking years and nothing