I feel robbed.

I am currently 5 weeks 1 day pregnant with what is hopefully going to be my rainbow baby. I had a miscarriage back in May which we know was caused by fibroids. I was actually already scheduled for their removal when we found out I was pregnant. I had the removal and a D&C on June 7th and we did a medicated Intercourse cycle and I ended up with my BFP On August 1st. I have a 10 year old son from a previous relationship and I absolutely loved every second of being pregnant with him. I feel like my miscarriage took that from me this time around. I Have had my bloodwork done and everything looks great my numbers are doubling but I can’t relax or enjoy any part of this pregnancy because I am so scared of losing it. I’m happy to be here because after 13 months of trying we were beginning to think that we were going to have to go IVF and now we know that we can get pregnant naturally but I am really mad at the world that I can’t enjoy this. I’m hoping that once we get to see a heartbeat on an ultrasound I can relax a little and begin to feel attached to this baby.