Ok so I just want to say I have a lo and I really want another. I’ve been having these feelings of wanting another since my lo turned 3 1/2 months (6 months now). Recently my sister in law found out she’s pregnant. She’s 19 and wasn’t TTC. Total surprise. It makes me so mad. Tbh I really feel like she doesn’t need a kid. She wanted one but her boyfriend didn’t want kids AT ALL. They have 2 dogs they struggle to take care of (they always fight over who is going to take the dogs out) and they live with her boyfriends parents (who did not want any babies in their house). She’s all excited cause that’s what she wanted was a baby just not right now. It just irritates me cause I really want another one and with her being pregnant and always posting about it it’s just hard. I feel like some days I’m super jealous then other days I want to help and give her advice. I don’t understand these feelings. Like I’m jealous cause I want to be pregnant and be excited about having another baby but then I take a step back and I’m like I love my lo I have now and she’s probably scared cause she didn’t expect to be pregnant this young but I just can’t shake the feeling of being upset some days. I try to talk to my husband about it and he kind of understands but I leave the part about being jealous out. He just knows that I want another. I try not to express my feelings about my sil to him. I just don’t think he’d understand. He just sees when I’m going in a downward spiral and we would TTC baby #2 but he’s working on getting a promotion at his job first. He’s like so close to having it but it could be next year before he actually gets the position and the pay raise he wants. I just wish it would come sooner because it feels like it’s going so slow. It just makes me feel like it will never be a good time to have another baby. I just hope that something happens shortly. And I know what some of you are going to say “well you only have a 6 month old try and enjoy it.” Or “you need to wait your babies only 6 months”... that’s not what I need to hear right now. I hear enough of that from my mil when I express to her how much I want another. I just want to know if I’m not alone. If there are others out there who struggle with wanting another but trying to wait. It just feels like it will never happen.

My feelings of wanting another one did not stem from my sil finding out she was pregnant I was having these feelings way before she found out. I’ve been so up and down with it for a while. Before she found out it was the same thing. I’d be excited thinking about having another then other days I’d feel like it will just never happen.