I'm not sure my husband wants children.

My husband and I are currently TTC #1. Hold on, I know what your thinking after the title, keep reading.

About 6 months ago, I told him that I wanted to get pregnant, and thought about taking out my nexplanon to have a baby. He somewhat agreed saying "well, I'm not getting any younger." I had it removed in April.

I am currently still not pregnant.

He has mentioned things about not being able to afford a baby, or not wanting to lose his independence. He also, generally, tries to avoid sex during my fertile window.

For the most part, any time I bring up babies, he doesn't have much to say.

I'm at a loss of what to do. At nearly 30, I am no longer TTC, and restarting birth control. I am devastated. 😔

EDIT to reply to other comments;

Of course we have talked about it further in depth than what I had initially stated. Though, I will admit not to the depth in which it probably should have been discussed. As "easy" as our relationship is, kids is such a tough topic to talk to him about. Not that either of avoid it necessarily.

I don't know if not having children is a deal breaker necessarily, I just wish he would have been more open about exactly how long he wanted to wait...

Honestly, this was just more to vent than anything.